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| It's been two long years. WOW! So much has happened and looking back at eighteen year old me, is really scary. I used to swear a lot and have so much anger, it was probably due to Trent. Oh life. In just two weeks I will no longer be assistant manager! Almost THREE long years at Brueggers Bagel Bakery Dungeon. I can not wait to run away from cream cheese spreading hell. I finally have ideas and goals that I've somewhat stuck with. So much has changed! I feel really good about the present and what lies ahead. I have this keen ambition to develop my skills and I haven't felt this motivated in a really long time. I've let and will be letting go of my biggest burdens and finally reached the realization that I shouldn't let myself get used by others. Reflecting on the past year I realize i have gone through A TON of bullshit. I don't regret it, its made me a lot stronger and showed me no matter how close you think you are with someone or how great of a person they may seem to be, true colors eventually come out. Sadly its caused some "break ups" I'm really happy now, i don't have anybody or anything bringing me down and it will only get better from here 
its getting betta all the tieeeieim.
it's what you make of it, love.
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| !!!yayayay big news !!!!!buying a car in less than a week :)
YAY. ^.^6^^^^^>^>^>^66gfdg
i am soo very very excited.
ill have a car but no place to go besides work. =\
bummer.
all other goals-- still unaccomplished.
i am taking pictures though.
i sell them framed and all ask me if want pretty landscape photographs or macros of flowers and stuff.
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| life is glorious.
it is really much better after high school : )
soon i will have my very own car, oh boyyyy : )
and paid for with my hardearned money$$money..
so i could be doing a lot more for myself, but i'm working on it!
i plan on attending school next fall, i am officially going back.
things i promise myself to do:
1- go back to school
2- get my loans figured out
3- buy a car
4- get an internship
5- taptaptap
6- take pictures again
7- photo job!
8- quit weed sometime.. again.
I HAVE a list.
lets get motivated rachel!!!!!
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i have never felt happier.
MUSIC CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:Alex Mouganis LIVE! | | |
| So-- My life is interesting.. I don't understand it much and i'm probably just writing whatever comes to mind right now. I am extremely tired and it's just so much I have to do and so much I want to do and then all of the stuff I don't want and everything gets really confusing. I pretty much don't even follow what i'm saying right now. blahhhhhhhhhh
I should be fixing this damn essay I have to hand it tomorrow, I actually just have to do the sources.
This is cool, the tab works now. I haven't updated in awhile and really wrote an entry. I feel like i'm writing to someone and just talking about absolutely nothing.....but i'm not. HI XANGA!
soooootandpooo
whyyyyyyyyy?
or
when?
time&..
i need something to do.. besides sleep and sit here and waste time. why am I WASTING TIME?
why do i care?
timmmmeeeeeee e doesnt matter
i'm really not sure where i went there, my mind seems pretty blank lately. its just there thinking and i just sit while it thinks and dont respond and i just act as if i know nothing about anything.
i know its not true, i dont know why i do it.
ii i i ii i i ii i
so much is fustrating. i i ii i i i
iiii
iiiii
parents think iiiii 'm shitty
do everyones thoughts involve themselves
no duh
right now i only think about me rigt now and nothing else it still involves me if its something else.
its driving me crazy.
not really.
photoooography.
i don't like my negatives?
digital is going to kick ass
im not going to bed but im not going to let this continue
so gooodnight xanga?
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